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so many things changed .... so many things different, im working now and have been from the start of my senior year. So many emotions driven, found, a few loved ones lost through my own selfish acts. Hopeing on falling stars, and dreaming of things that will never come true dont help, having goals that fit like shoes 2 sizes to big. And everytime that i try to go after that dream it just keeps getitng further and further away and to big for me to even atempit to want it anymore. But theres something good actually that happened and right now its one of the better things that happened to me. Starting to listen to country music and went to go hear a band thats country and southern rock called Wanted they have a websight www.wantedband.com that is cool and they also have a list of places that they play at. Also met a few cool people one of them being Vicky that is such an outgoing person that its amaising what you can see after talking to somone like that.
Well so much for the update well ill let all my freinds that use the websight read it and i might update more, but now that im working i dont know......
frozen forever
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o.o.. i just updated my journal.... and i saw the timeing was all off... whats up with that?! someone please tell me thats not me that sees it?
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[29 Dec 2004|03:26pm] |
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lots of thing are changing now. I think its changing for the better also. I went on a date last night and it went SOOOO WELL!!! i felt great it was just AHHH!!!! one of the best times ive ever had!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is so sweet and just gaaa i cant explane it, it dosent help that im rushing so i can well relax before work nore that im half alseep as it is. And wanting to be going on my second date with her RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok enough of that. just letting everyone know that im doen better and that life is changing around in a good way right now
Frozen Forever
Ice
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need sleep im tired its 11:18 i have school and i need sleep so to the hell with worring about anything tomorrow if Friday and guess what, ive determeended what ever happens happens. *srugs* well im tired so yea lol im not making NOT A DAMED SENCE WHAT SO EVER!!!!!!
but im going to bed so all will be well tomorrow. untill i get up O.o
frozen forever,
Ice
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[17 Nov 2004|10:59pm] |
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ok heres the deal, need to wate to Sunday night to get a update, im busy, to update, and i have to deal with some personal issues so there ya go, my fans will get updated when i can get a chance - sorry but im tired!!!!!!!! let me get my sleep!! ok goen now.
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Ice
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[15 Nov 2004|09:28pm] |
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A Story of Two
Angel girl watch over me
Heaven nor hell can hold you
Leave this little boy be
But let me be the one to hold you too
Heaven nor hell can hold you
Drowned me in the sea
But let me be the one to hold you too
Only wrap your wings around me
Drowned me in the sea
I have to tell you the truth
Only wrap your wings around me
Let this little boy stay in my youth
I have to tell you the truth
Leave this little boy be
Let this little boy stay in my youth
Angel girl watch over me
By: Matt Brooks
ok i havent updated in a whyle so what?! lol well i just just busy thats all, work school , school work , etc. so anyway...
ok i went on a date with Lish Saturday night AND I LOVED IT!!!! it was a BLAST!!!!! it was great!
oh Lish the poem i made for you I did it for my Creative Wrighting class. *hugs*
well im going to go now.
enjoy the update yall.
Frozen Forever
Ice
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[07 Oct 2004|04:24am] |
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ok just to let yall know i told the girl that i like i liked her im not talking about my other friend.... im talking about the one that i lives in my town. Lets just say that im tired of trying for looking at things i cant have. So i sort of opened my eyes, i have a new person that i like that lives in a different state, yes i know that everyone will say that online dating wont work. but were not dating atleast not yet so just telling yall that im going back to my rutes. and just letting everyone know i am trying to keep this one as good and pure as possable. and im also not getting quite involved so quickly. expacally becasue both of us dont want that and i dont know if she wants to be known or not so im not saying it right now. and im taking my verry best friend Lish to my senior dance. even know i dont know how to dance but that will work out soon enough so. ohh I almost forgot my mom got a new laptop sence the old windows 98 computer died. And im getting it from her in november lol so this is whats been hapening. oh and the reason why im mot posting is because i have a job at Chick-fal-a for co op. alright to all thats reading this i think i told you enough for right now lol. ill post a little latter
to that special somone,
love always and forever
Ice
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[11 Sep 2004|06:04pm] |
nothing normal nothing going right.... so whats new... nothing except wating for a job from Gamestop..... *sighs* not much to say eather.... having a headack...ok not much for updating now eather...
frozen forever
Ice
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[31 Aug 2004|04:08pm] |
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just got a bad hand ... but i have a Ace in it thats actually whats making it bad... i need a few more lower cards and then i got it... one cards comming into play when i start school but the other cards will get in the way. im willing to take the chance....... but between my hand of cards AND the timeing...... NOTHING is working out in my favior........... somone!!!!!!! anyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! give me a good omen!
(ART YOU JUST SAVED THE DAY!!!!!!!!!! ) ok one good thing that happened today lol!
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Ice
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[24 Aug 2004|01:16pm] |
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i dont know what to do anymore i dident tell her yet, im just wating for the right cards i guess.... i have a full hand and im wating for the ace ....... and all im getting is every other card in the deck. lol just my luck the Ace wont come to me but im filling up my life so no regreats...
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Ice
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[18 Aug 2004|10:34pm] |
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1) ok the SS Trapt cd dideint come in the mail yet
i hope it dident get lost
2) the girl i like i dident see today
3) my good friend Oocura dident come online yet... and theres only a half an hour before she needs to get to bed before school .... so shes probally not going on ...
the third strike.....today i should have stayed in bed
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Ice
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ive been lazy, sorry!!!
i havent told her yet but im verry close on doing it, and im still having my doubts but im working on it so dont push me im already taking a great leap for what i think i am capabable of , so here it stands , the verdict is ..well its not in yet :P so just give me my time !!
im going to tell her but im wating for the right time!!!
i also got my new glasses!!! and i tinted blue pair!! its great!!! lol
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Ice
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ok soon im going to talk to that girl that i sort of like from my town >.>; .... i just hope she understands and such...............::trys not to think aobut it becasue im trying not to worry about it::
computer probems are fine now and the thing about my freind..... that i was worried about its ok with that
so the only real probalm is worring about talking to her but other then that im good,
frozen forever
Ice
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[30 Jul 2004|09:19pm] |
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ok just to let yous know a noter friend of mine came online and was talking to me about how she wanted to brake up with her b/f and that the b/f was making her feal gility about it..... well .... at the end after telling me "i dont want to tlak on the phone" she then says "o he calls you a cry baby and that he says that you like me" refering I like my friend... .wich shes a SISTER TO ME!!!! #1 her b/f had said stuff before that i dident agree with but i kept my mouth shut.... and my secind problem that i see with this..... now if i feel like steping in he'll try to put that on me ..... and even after that ....... i dont know im just a little mad becasue i dont know if this freind stuck up for me because right after she typed that up ... .she then said that she had to go ....... so i dont know whats going on.....
o and if your the friend you know who this is about ... so im just asking you to call me or something so i can tlak to you with out your b/f in your ear.....
o and in other news.... the girl that i like that lives in my town ... im going to be talking to her soon i hope...... and also im going down to merland this weekend ill be down there for lunch tomorrow.... and then i wont be back in NJ till about monday..........
o and sorry for talking like this it just happened and im just a little mad thats all....
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Ice
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ok im getting everything togeather so i can talk to her next time i see her, my mind ready so i dont mumble and such, and thank you all that gave me advice, and if anyone reads the last 3 posts id still like to know what yous think...
im going to be going down to merland for the weekend to visite 2 freinds of mine and play some games!!!!!
and im finally being able to consintrate on things better so yea.... life is good
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Ice
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ok im having dreams.... about her...... will i ever be held by her or hold her, what do these dreams mean? what are they trying to tell me ....im even daydreaming about her ....i just hope shes ok but i mean why wouldent she be but anyway..... gaa im just babbling on and on...
i still have to go recoard with my band.... asuming they all still want to be in the band....
id tell you more about her but if she reads this then shell know who she is..... and i cant say anymore like how i know her or anything like that because then that will give it way..... so for all that reads im sorry and ill inform what i can when i can ....
and i know im going crazy because im starting to be drained because im thinking and stressing what im going to do - say to her... so..my body is tired of my mind fighting, and that just makes me tired and thats about it....
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Ice
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[22 Jul 2004|10:27am] |
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ok besides i need opions on what to do with my freind.... that i still dident get ......(read last post) now i think Lish is mad at me ..... i know Tori is........ and Joe and Ashley wtf is everyone got aganst me ......... i meen i shouldent care but now i think my only 2 close freinds the ones that i call sisters the last two out of the 3 are now i beleave mad at me ....... i dont know what i did...... im losing my freaking mind ....... im meeting that girl at the mall today around 2 and i hope Lish will come .....im not sure thoe...and i dont know what to do i feel like everyones just aganst me expacally now ...... *sihgs* give me some advice on my last post and im just updating....
i feel like im losing everyone...
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Ice
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[21 Jul 2004|05:20pm] |
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ok tomorrow im meeting somone form FL at a mall near by ..... its just amasing the thought of meeting somone form another state ... and somone that you talked to before online with out seeing there face ... ok thats just a backround
now with my band... i have everything for recording i just need to get unlazy enough to start recording ... yea ill get around to it verry soon...
next off the bat the thing im going to have most trouble with..... is theres a girl that i like shes gaurgeous,smart, funny, and if i continue it will take 3 more posts..... i meen weve been friends for 5 years ........ i meen were so good frends its just..... great!! but i would talk to her about my feelings but she has a b/f.... that she goes on and off with that she "loves" .... so im sort of in a bad place...so im just stuck being the frend..I don't mind it shes a great freind its just hard likeing her and just being freinds.. i meen i want to go further and i would try if it wasent for a few HUGE stone baulders!
(PS!! ok im done complaneing but please...I NEED YOUR HELP PLEASE GIVE ME SOME ADVICE!!!! PLEASE I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! anyone with advice?)
Frozen Forever
Ice
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[10 Jul 2004|09:24am] |
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ok just this morning i saw the flower thing that i put at my dads grave bent in half and in the street... my mom says that his wife did it..... i am overley pissed that someone could do that i meen ... he is my dad and i cant do anything about that and im PROUD! of it and im more pissed off at the fact of that she cant see that im his son to... and i have EVERY right to put a "DAD" flower up on fathers day .... so yea..... not good mood.......post latter
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Ice
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i dont know . not doing anything makes someone more tired then doing something.... yea ive been afk and im also waiting on 2 people to actually come on aim that actually was going on vacation for ONE! week ...its almost been two weeks.... im starting to worry and also im waiting for my teacher LL to come back on line im beginning to miss her.
on another hand i only have around 4 replies ..... is anyone reading these at all? ...is my life that boring?
Frozen Forever
Ice
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